So I've been thinking lately.

I've been thinking lately: I spend a hour of my day watching television, a couple doing homework and other school related projects, about seven hours at school learning, less than an hour with my guinea pigs, maybe an hour of quality time with my family and very little helping others. In less than a hundred years I will be dead and when I think about it, when I'm about to die I won’t remember that I passed or failed that math test and I won’t remember what happened on General Hospital. What I will remember is my family and all the wonderful times we had together. What I will remember are all of my pets and how much I adored them. What I will want to remember is how I impacted other people’s lives and did not just live for myself. Unfortunately for me, I spend limited time with my family, pets, and helping others. My whole perception of live has been twisted and I know it. Yet I have done nothing to change it. I would love to walk around in the most comfortable clothing possible and enjoy life without caring one hundred percent what people think of me. I would love to spend more time with the people who matter most. I would love to brighten someone’s day, every day. But if those are my goals then why don’t I strive to achieve them? Why do I worry so much about what I wear and what happens on that television show? I think about this every day and after ten minutes or so I snap out of it and I tell myself to go back to reality. I don’t like reality; I want to change reality oh-so-badly. If I could just prioritize my life better, that would be great. Maybe I will volunteer somewhere, I've been thinking about the Hawaiian Humane Society but I still have yet to turn in my application. Maybe I should devote my Sunday's to spending time with family, pets, and friends and do minimal homework and television watching. That sounds like a plan.